A lot can be said about time.
For very young children, it goes by at a snail’s pace – especially when they are looking forward to Christmas or their birthday party. For those more my age, we never seem to have enough of it. Our lives are so busy and we’re so focused on moving from one task to the other that we don’t even take the opportunity to appreciate what is going on all around us. And for the older generation, time moves by at lightning speed, and in the blink of an eye another year has passed.
Today marked the 85th birthday of one of my dear aunts. I sent her a very early morning email to express my hope that she had a great day, and that I knew my cousins would be surrounding her with love today. I told her she didn’t look a day over 60, but she responded with good humor and informed me that she did indeed feel very much her age today. :) I think we’ll just blame that on the weather (which has been rainy for a couple of days now), because she certainly would fool anyone who looked at her and tried to guess how old she is.
I have also been thinking about my dad, who found out he had cancer on May 1st of last year. At the time, I was told he had months to live. Months…what does that mean? No one could really say. So I was left to wonder, does that mean three? Maybe six? Would he make it to Christmas? Could I dare hope it meant eighteen or twenty-four? Could he beat the odds and make it another five years? That’s only 60 months, not that much when you compare it to a lifetime, really.
I’m no closer to finding out the answer to that riddle, but I don’t really question it any more. I have been blessed to have him for another year, and he hasn’t given up yet. Every day has been a gift, and it’s only sweeter because he isn’t in a lot of pain and is still very much himself mentally. If I ignore the fact that he is much bonier when I hug him, or that his so-beautiful mane of thick silver hair has now noticeably thinned, I can fool myself for a brief while that nothing has changed.
But one thing that has definitely changed is that I realize the value of a day now, more than ever. And I am trying to not get so bogged down with life’s problems that I fail to enjoy the moments I’m given each day. Time is the one thing that once spent, you can never get a refund. So we should all choose wisely how we spend each day.